The Room is So Quiet...

Every time the munchkin leaves it is like a piece of me is broken and goes with her...I miss her so much and even though having Kiera around now sometime keeps me a little more distracted, without Skylar at home it is just not the same. She is my helper, my little princess, my buddy and best friend. I love Kiera so much and she is like Skylar a blessing to have in my life but Sky is at the age where the two of us talk to one another, bake cookies for "daddy", watch our favorite movies together and constantly spend time together. "I miss you munchkin!"

Sunday night we took her back to her moms and it always hard when she asks to stay with her dad and baby Kiera...we were there at five an hour and half early like Bre asked us to be and we decided that was ok...when at around 4:30 after we had already passed Delta she texts and let us know that it wasn't a big deal and to bring her at 6:30 as usual. So though we were happy that she wasn't going early it was I think rude that she let us know this last minute...Danny and I do not like Grand Junction or the drive to get there. In the end though we ended up having a great time with Skylar and got to see a few friends that I don't get to see to often. "Whitney I had a blast with you girl and Wrae I love you so much...you both are the greatest!"

Yesterday Kiera had her 2 month visit and for those who have children know that she had to have a few shots...it is true what they say about hurting you more than them. She did cry and scream for about ten minutes while I tried not to cry and calm her down. I know she needs them but when your baby looks up at you with the widest eyes filled with tears it just breaks your heart you know? Kiera is now 10lbs and is 21in long! Growing oh so fast! Her best friend is her big sister whom she loves to listen to when Sissy sings the "Tarzan song." She holds her head up like a pro and likes to lay on her tummy...I am so excited to watch both of them grow!!!

Making Decisions

So after more emailing back and forth with BreAnne we have decided to take Skylar back early so long as she keeps our agreement and lets Skylar stay an extra hour and a half with us whenever we choose. I really do not like dealing with her at all as she has not made a good impression on me or anyone else I know. I am always trying to give her the benefit of the doubt but she consistently makes it seem like her own selfishness is above Skylars happiness and that just seems very wrong to me. God knows all things, He will be there in our good and bad times and I must remember that He will never give me or my family more than we can bare. Overall this week has been great but I hate it when they end...Sundays should be a happy day all the time, to be able to worship and give yet another thanks to our Lord. Unfortunately for us it comes with good-byes every other week and that is not something to look forward to. Until she is gone and we start counting the days until she comes home. Someday soon she will be old enough to tell us where she would like to be, though one may hurt more than the other it will make me so happy...for it will be the day that she makes her own decision without ANYONE in the middle, parents or step-parents alike.

Skylar did however get to take her cousins to Sunday School this morning and they all seemed to love it!!! Which makes me extremely happy..."Lord you are always watching, please keep Skylar safe as she goes away from us, protect and guide her, love her always and keep her knowing that you are here for her whenever we cannot be...thank you."

Dealings...

Today is another beautiful, bright, sunny day but the dealings we are having to mess with stinks! My parents have been letting foreign exchange students come and stay with them for years now, they have had I think about six students total but have never had to deal with a child like Dillon! Most kids that are excepted into this program to come to our Country come highly recommended and over many other students. They come from there countries of course not use to American ways so some have a hard first month or so adjusting but in the end they leave like family... this particular young man has just ran my family through the ringer that's for sure!!! He came with an attitude like you would not believe first he got completed obsessed with a girl at our church that he had seen one time...went to her work while she was working without asking my parents forced himself on her to kiss him and mess around. In the end while at homecoming he was found drunk and four times over the limit...instead of admitting that he was just getting drunk with friends he completely lied to keep himself from trouble and being sent home...saying that he was kidnapped, threatened and made to drink because he was Muslim! When confronted by teachers he was told how serious the situation was and that these seniors could be sent to jail for 10-20 years he said he didn't care...finally the truth came out and he was told to write it out and was expelled from school...alot of other things have gone on (by the way Dillon is not Muslim he admitted on his papers to come here that he was not a certain religion and that he never attends any type of church service.) He is now being sent home extremely early because of his behavior. The purpose of the program he is in is to experience the different culture here and to let others here learn more about him and his country and he is not making them look good at all! So unfortunately he will be leaving for home sometime this week but is giving everyone he sees a very, very hard time.

On top of this Dannys ex-wife wants us to bring Skylar back to her early today for her husbands company picnic...which we would have no problem with but she refuses to give us the extra time back. She says no trading that we should just be willing to give her to her and not expect anything back. We only get Skylar for five days while she gets nine full days with her. So...just another day in the life. Good news today I get my beautiful niece and nephew tonight to watch!!! They love coming when Skylar is home...and we love having them over!

The Start of Something New

Hello to all...
My name is Kena and this will be my first blog!!! To get you all updated I am 21, was married to the most amazing man on March 15 of this year, have two incredibly beautiful girls...Skylar is three and Kiera is now two and half months! Skylar is my step-daughter whom I love like my own (and looking at her you wouldn't ever know that we aren't related). Kiera is our first child together and we have been loving every minute with her. Life is going pretty good right now, Danny just got back to work after injuring his arm and being off of work for over a month. Money wise it has been extremely difficult but I know it will work out soon:) I love my life and everyone it but am always up to making new friends.

Today has been pretty blah...if you know what I mean~ Danny had to take today off to take care of some business...it's crazy how even after you are married there are so many things that company's won't let your spouse take care of isn't it? We took the little munchkin to pre-school this morning it is her third or fourth week going now and she LOVES IT!!! It makes my day when I go to pick her up and she yells "Mommy!!!" and comes running to tell me what she learned at school. After dropping Skys off this morning we took Kiera to the walk-in clinic at the pediatrics office and came to find out the abnormal fussiness is from having a little colic:( "poor baby" Since then Danny has been helping my dad out with a truck repair that will give us a little extra money and then off to take care of some things. Good news is it is payday today, though all of it is gone on bills this paycheck I still will thank the Lord for providing in our time of need. My kids are healthy, Danny and I are healthy, we have a roof over our heads and food on the table... I will never say He isn't their for us...I will talk to you all tomorrow and look forward to another day!